I realize that you all will be so excited you cant stand it and you will probably be dropping everything that you do to read every post, but who am I kidding its not like I will be great at keeping up with it. However after today's events I realized that a lot of weird things really do happen to me.
Today for example, I walk into a doctors office and a lady of probably 70+ years old walks over to me and says "Awww honey cute shirt, guess we have good taste." I thought it was somewhat funny right at the moment...then it hit me, this question will haunt me for the rest of my life...Is it ok that granny "cute-shirt" as we will call her was wearing the exact same shirt as me? Which made me start thinking about my entire style life, everything I thought was, wasn't. I have always kinda thought of myself as not having a lot of trendy style, but I always kinda thought I had somewhat of an idea of how to dress and what made me look ok, but now I am questioning it all...
Now I realize that maybe this doesn't seem like a big deal to you, but it was the absolute worst day in the world to happen, today was the day I had chosen to pick out my new years outfit. Which still may not seem like a big deal until I went to a few stores,and realized that everything in every store was made to make me anyone wearing it look like a giant strobe light...when I caught myself cursing the designers for making these looks that would blind someone if you stood under a light at the correct angle, I was hit by a loud haunting voice saying "Somewhere in the world there a granny gripping about the same thing" This voice kept getting louder and LOUDER until I had a complete melt down in the store, kicking and screaming, crying that snotty kind of cry, saying "NNNNOOOO, I will not be taken down by this" (ok, ok, so I'm slightly exaggerating, but there was a brief moment of panic). So after trying on about 37 different things I finally picked out something to wear, and I'm still not sure that I wont be dressed just like my grandmother.
This experience has thrown my whole psyche was thrown off. My self esteem that was once mediocre at best was dropped to almost non-existent. Now dont get me wrong there is nothing wrong with a cute granny dressed stylish, but if they are going to be a stylish granny I would much rather them be stylish in the same thing you're wearing...
No comments:
Post a Comment